Love Yourself
Here I am sitting at the dinner table. This food looks so good and I am so hungry... But I'm already fat enough. I put my plate under the table and let my dog eat the food. I sighed and went up to my room. I looked in the mirror and thought to myself, "ugh". Why can't I be like those people that know how to maintain their weight? Or eat a lot and not gain weight? Ugh.
The next day, I went to school and didn't bother to eat breakfast. My stomach was growling throughout the whole day. I'm so hungry, but I don't want to eat. I went over to my friend's house that night to study. Her parents offered me dinner, and I said yes... Why did I do that?? As we were eating, I kept stuffing the food into my cheeks. Then, I go to the bathroom and spit it out. After that night, I pretty much kept doing that. My friends were starting to notice and so were my parents. I think it's just me being delusional.
One day, my mom cooked what used to be my favorite. Baked macaroni with chicken. As usual, I stuffed the food into my cheeks. As I started to go to the bathroom, my mom stopped me. "Jade, swallow your food before you go to the bathroom."
Busted. I just went to the trash can and spit my food out and then sat at the table. "How long have you been doing this?"
"A few months."
I was explaining to my parents about why I'm anorexic and things like that. But then they told me that there is no need to be anorexic because they love me and so does everyone else in my family. After that, I was no longer anorexic. I've learned to love myself.
Anorexia is when you starve yourself to the point where you can't gain weight. Usually, people go anorexic because they're not happy with their weight. It doesn't matter how much you weigh. Know that people love you for who YOU are and that your weight doesn't matter. Love yourself.
Luv Ya
~Tashy
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